Hopes Through a Paper Shredder

My mind is troubled and I don't even know where to begin.
I had high hopes for this year. I thought that we might actually have a chance to win the whole thing in games. All of this has changed since the knowledge that five people who I had been planning on for my "good" games team came to my attention. Not to mention that unless a miracle happens, I am not going to be picking anything more than who runs what events. At the beginning of the year, Brian and I had been trying to decided between the best of the best for out good games team. Now, we don't even get to pick the best of the worst. I am going to be stuck with the people I was not even going to consider putting on the games team.

I have been completely blown over two years in a row. First, we had enough people for two games team but they split up the talent and neither team got past the second round (not to mention, the other team was carried by two people and people who did not deserve to win ended up getting first place in locals.) Second year, we didn't have enough people for two teams and because it was based on seniority, my best friend didn't get to go, despite the fact that he was probably the fourth best athlete on the team. I am not at all fired up about being screwed all over again.

I am making some completely radical decisions at the moment (I don't mean radical in the sense that they are amazing, I mean to say that they are aggressive.) Quite frankly, I hate to go through with some of them, but at this point, it is nothing but eliminating the worst possible outcome and taking the one that is merely bad.

God, you never seem to listen to a word I have to say. Maybe it is because I have no faith, but put yourself in my shoes. How would you feel about asking the supreme ruler of the universe to orchestrate events so that you can have what you have wanted for the last three years? Wouldn't you feel small, not to mention arrogant, prideful, and selfish?

NOTE: I know that I am extremely frank in this post. I know that some people, if they read this, will get offended, but I think that everyone should know exactly where I stand and why I am where I am. If you are offended, you can quit reading.